It's quite a thing, you know, staring at yourself as you sleep. Almost as if a mirror hovered above you, and you'd suddenly developed the ability to see through your eyelids. But this simile is an illusion, you realize, when the paramedics start to buzz about, police officers collect names and stories, and you notice the bus driver, wringing his hat in his hands, a look of pure terror on his face as he speaks to one of the officers. He fears for you, but more for his job.
This is the scenario that I face as of yet. I watch as strangers poke and prod, news reporters show up by the truckload to cover the story, and idiots dive in front of the
You smiled at me and that's all I needed.
Lucky for me that I'm still breathing.
It felt like a hurricane hit me that day
because you took my breath away.
For a moment, I think my heart stopped beating
on the day our paths were meeting.
I had so many things I could never say
because you took my breath away.
When the flowers grew heavy on the tree boughs,
that was the day we said our vows
You promised to love me until we turned grey
and that simply took my breath away
But now we're old and fragile souls
covered in liver spots, hair, and moles,
but I still sigh for the sake of you every day,
and you still take my breath away.
If I were anything like you,
I'd dress as though I walked the runways
of high school.
Every move I made would be well thought out,
and I'd pick my friends
by what they could offer me.
If I were anything like you,
my eyes would shimmer and my face
would be thick with paste to hide my flaws.
My lashes would stretch to my
perfectly plucked brows,
and resemble thick arachnid legs
if I were anything like you.
But since I am everything like me,
I polish hand-me-downs like they were new.
I make mistakes I can't count
on thousands of hands,
and my friends have offered me nothing
but their company
Since I am everything like me
I did not expect it to be so cold. I wished I would have brought a heavier jacket, but then again, I didn't expect Tris to do his disappearing act out here in the woods. My flashlight swayed back and forth along the narrow trail, my feet sinking deeper and deeper into the rain-softened mud.
"Tristan, are you out here?" The light began to dim, then flicker, and die. "Shit," I hissed as I smacked the flashlight against the palm of my hand. "You have got to be kidding me." I twisted the top off the useless light and fished around in my pockets for the spare batteries. I dumped the old ones into my hand and plopped the new ones in. When I switch
It's quite a thing, you know, staring at yourself as you sleep. Almost as if a mirror hovered above you, and you'd suddenly developed the ability to see through your eyelids. But this simile is an illusion, you realize, when the paramedics start to buzz about, police officers collect names and stories, and you notice the bus driver, wringing his hat in his hands, a look of pure terror on his face as he speaks to one of the officers. He fears for you, but more for his job.
This is the scenario that I face as of yet. I watch as strangers poke and prod, news reporters show up by the truckload to cover the story, and idiots dive in front of the
You smiled at me and that's all I needed.
Lucky for me that I'm still breathing.
It felt like a hurricane hit me that day
because you took my breath away.
For a moment, I think my heart stopped beating
on the day our paths were meeting.
I had so many things I could never say
because you took my breath away.
When the flowers grew heavy on the tree boughs,
that was the day we said our vows
You promised to love me until we turned grey
and that simply took my breath away
But now we're old and fragile souls
covered in liver spots, hair, and moles,
but I still sigh for the sake of you every day,
and you still take my breath away.
If I were anything like you,
I'd dress as though I walked the runways
of high school.
Every move I made would be well thought out,
and I'd pick my friends
by what they could offer me.
If I were anything like you,
my eyes would shimmer and my face
would be thick with paste to hide my flaws.
My lashes would stretch to my
perfectly plucked brows,
and resemble thick arachnid legs
if I were anything like you.
But since I am everything like me,
I polish hand-me-downs like they were new.
I make mistakes I can't count
on thousands of hands,
and my friends have offered me nothing
but their company
Since I am everything like me
I did not expect it to be so cold. I wished I would have brought a heavier jacket, but then again, I didn't expect Tris to do his disappearing act out here in the woods. My flashlight swayed back and forth along the narrow trail, my feet sinking deeper and deeper into the rain-softened mud.
"Tristan, are you out here?" The light began to dim, then flicker, and die. "Shit," I hissed as I smacked the flashlight against the palm of my hand. "You have got to be kidding me." I twisted the top off the useless light and fished around in my pockets for the spare batteries. I dumped the old ones into my hand and plopped the new ones in. When I switch
Of blackest night and shadowed dreams,
Under the watchful eye of moon,
The world tears apart at the seams,
And everywhere, pieces are strewn.
Desperate, I try so hard,
To fix was has been left for me.
Born of chaos, still so scarred,
I search for something that cannot be.
Each one of them is a part of me,
The blame, the death, even the doom.
Surely not only I can see,
While some have died, others still bloom.
Not all I create is born of fear.
What about dreams, or soothing sleep?
For those poor souls, I shed a tear,
And for my own, I can only weep.
What they never teach you about grief by Anarkhos, literature
Literature
What they never teach you about grief
1.
You will not cry demurely in socially acceptable situations.
Instead you shall perform the walking
howl;
and cry hysterically, calm down, and cry, and calm
as you try to gather yourself on the way to the station.
2.
You will be late for work - you will see the dress you wore
last time you saw your lost one -
and you will hold it and breathe into it as if maybe just maybe
you will smell them or feel them or it will change things
and then find you cannot hold it together while wearing it,
change, and miss your train.
3.
You will find this happens over and over and you buy new things
so that they are not 'oh I wore this with
I, am tired.
Tired of feeling.
Tired of all the hard work of healing.
Tired of failing.
Tired of falling.
Tired.
I am tired of things,
People, and notions.
Tired of people,
And tired of their motions.
Tired of their talk
Tired of their commotion.
Tired of everything
Inside and out
Tired of hating
Too tired to pout
I just wish,
Wish I could live,
Live underwater
Some place to forgive
Some place to wish
And wish I shall do
Wish to not be tired
Oh, please wish,
Come true.